OK, so lately has been tough for us - for me. And I am starting to realize we are not alone. Friend after friend have been expressing their difficulties, their struggles, their trials and tribulations. Today, I realized that sometimes the LORD allows our faith to be "cornered." There are times that are just so difficult, no answer will suffice. The only explanation is that G-D is growing our faith in a fantastically weird way. It's almost like we are being shoved up against a wall...and the questions come like bullets out of a revolver:
"NOW, do you REALLY believe? Do you REALLY trust? Where is your faith NOW?"
I won't attempt to decipher WHO is doing the asking. But I can tell that these are important, life-changing questions. When we confess and proclaim over and over again that we serve a Living G-D, that we trust Him with everything, that we belong to Him - there comes a point that we have to reaffirm those beliefs by hard, heart-wrenching decisions. Sometimes, it seems so hard that we even consider (even if only for a fleeting millisecond) leaving it all behind and giving up everything we have stood for for so long.
We remember the rains, the storms, the tempests. We remember the times where it seemed there was no way out, no way up, no possible positive solution. And yet, in every example, something miraculous came of it. It seems we forget about the "mini"miracles. They are easy to remember when things are going smoothly, but seem like faded dreams when faced with the new hardship.
So, are you waiting for my proclamation of a glimpse of hope? You're not going to find it- because in these kinds of times, you wouldn't believe it anyway.... I don't believe it....
But, we don't stop hoping for its existence.
If you find yourself in one of those end-of-the-line moments, remember it is not just you. We are all there, on our own path and trying to find the right solution. We are a team who fights solitary battles, but there is glory promised if we can just maintain our ground.
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